Monday, November 23, 2015

11 Year Anniversary

Can't believe it's been 11 years since Jason & I have started dating. Here's a super RARE picture of us wearing our boring white drywall work hoodies at the Bowler the first night we started going out. 

First date 2004

We've definitely brightened up each others lives!

Got some rad flowers and my favorite Carol Widmans dark chocolate raspberry jelly flavored sticks along with some delish coconut candies I'd never tried before & of course some well needed champagne! Can you say this mama is SPOLIED?

Silas has gotten a wee bit easier to care for but still is hungry all the time it seems like. Had an up the back poopy diaper blowout, got pissed on & spit up on tons so I've officially been accepted into motherhood properly.

awww holding his paci already!

 Lucky to get one good scrub down shower in a week these days, so that's weird. Most of my day consists of walking around with only a sports bra & skirt/dress on due to constant feedings & pumping sessions. I need to get in the habit of closing the curtains more...bummer.  

Friday, November 13, 2015

Baby's First Doctor Appointment

Silas is 9 days old & got his first checkup today!
It's also Friday the 13th....

Grandma & Grandpa S. stopped by to visit us since they live out of town and had an appointment in town themselves. For some reason Silas was all perfect and sleeping for them after Daddy & I have been having one hell of a stressful & sleepless week so far, go figure! 


His checkup went awesome and we were curious if he'd gained or lost weight. Born at 9 lbs 6 oz and now he weighs 9 lbs 11oz, what a healthy lil' man! Ended the Dr. visit by taking a crap in the room with the Dr. there, oh Silas lol. Since he is doing so good we get to skip his 2 month appointment in December and come back in January 2016.

First Dr. trip!

All an all a wonderful day.
Will I get some sleep tonight?
Is the ultimate question tho...

Monday, November 9, 2015

Blood Pressure Check

No problems huh?!
Forget that, I was wrong.

Sunday & today were an absolute DRAIN! A 20 year gap between having babies and knowing how to care for them physically & emotionally is not like riding a bike, my bad. Practice is needed when you go this long, in my experience so far. The crying, the lack of sleep, the 24/7 nursing & pumping & the diaper changing, all while I'm still bleeding like crazy from the delivery. It's all come back to me now. The constant need from your newborn is no joke. My old brain isn't use to the high pitched cries of a baby anymore an a massive headache has formed. Breastfeeding has turned into a never-ending battle. I feel like Silas isn't getting enough food to peacefully get him full & sleepy. The whole house is suffering from his lack of sleep, even the cats!

To top these first few days of new parenting off I had to stop in the clinic this evening and get my blood pressure checked. Was totally freaking out that it would be sky high due to all the stress I've been enduring at home but luckily it was pretty good. Yeaaaah! Wasn't looking forward to having to get on blood pressure pills at my age. I got enough issues lol.

It's been worth the suffering though for Silas is super snuggly and amazing to stare at! Oh, and I finally got a well needed shower...

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Day 4 after Birth

Going home today!
Silas's test results are negative so we'll finally be able to pack up and go home...this evening anyway. My blood pressure is still super high but thankfully I'm getting discharged as well.

No more washing hands a zillion times a day to see my baby, 
surely won't be missing that.

Wee one has to do a car seat check which takes 2 hours or so, dang. Guess they strap him in and make sure he can breath the whole time in the seat. Then we have a diaper changing & bathing session after. It's been a while since I've done either so it's just as new to me as it is to Jason. HAD to rest in bed a ton today which was a pain in the ass but gotta listen to the DR. & nurses I suppose so I can get out of here right? Finally got some uninterrupted sleep, ate good and was up and about with little pain ready to hit the road, patiently waiting forever...then once it finally happened it took literally a minute. Grrrrrrr. 

Here's baby Silas all ready to experience the outside world!

The abnormally beautiful day here in Fargo in November made me appreciate the moment even more! Once we got home & brought Silas in our 4 farm rescue cats were totally freaking out! When Silas cried our oldest cat, Marley, went pSyChO and beat up on our youngest yet largest cat, Specks, for no reason what so ever. It was crazy. Guess the new baby was pissing her off or she thought Specks was making that awful noise. She's such a bully. Freakin' cats! This happened a few more times that night until Marley figured out the new little addition to our family was the one causing all the ruckus. Our other two cats, Smokey & Miss Kitty, hid in the bedroom the rest of the night. 

Other then that we had a super good first night home. I actually got some sleep for Silas slept wonderfully & cried very little. "I got this, no problem" I thought... "This parenting stuffs like riding a bike"

Don't Worry Be Happy now...

Mama & baby

Daddy & baby

Friday, November 6, 2015

Day 3 after Birth

My hands and arms are mega dry due to all the 2 minute hand washing that's necessary to go into the NICU. Swear I've washed 20+ times today. 

Silas is doing super an I've gotten a wee bit better at breastfeeding. 
Wee bit better...wee bit.

Starting to LOVE the room service here and my hunger has returned while the food is finally staying in my belly happily now! Yeahhhhhhh. Hurts to walk around but it is getting easier. All these walks to & from the NICU are helping even though they are painful!

All day long I have been dealing with: 

-blood pressure checks (which have been sky high) 
-another damn blood draw for whatever reason I have no clue 
-feeding sessions at the NICU
-pumping (got an awesomely cute lil' breast pump finally) 
-waiting for room service
-bloody diaper pad changes (yes, for me)
-and TRYING to catch a few zzzzz's in between

It's been exhausting!

Honestly have gotten around 5 hours total of sleep these past 3 days here.
No showers & I'm going a bit cRaZy.

To top it off my freaking hospital bed is still so very loud all day and all night long. Ahhrhrhrgggh. When I can get a lil' nap it wakes me up. !@#$%^&

FU bed
Today Silas got circumcised and that went very good, he's such a lil' trooper! Disappointingly, we won't have any test results back until tomorrow so he has to stay overnight again in the NICU :( Due to my high blood pressure readings I as well will be staying, which works out I guess but it would be nice to go home. 

I'm prepared for another loooong night of NICU feedings, loud bed noises, nurse visits, pumping and quick naps perhaps. No wonder why my blood pressure is through the roof! Doohhh

"There's no place like home"
click (a noise from my bed)
 "There's no place like home"
 "There's no place like home"

ahhh damn didn't work, I'm still in the hospital....

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Day 2 after Birth

To sum this post wasn't much fun most of the day.

Such a stressful morning dealing with no sleep and the aftermath of a shitty night. The apple & cliff bar I ate earlier flew through me like nothing so eating breakfast isn't gonna happen now. No fricken way. Finally getting a hang of changing the massive diaper pad & all the icky fun stuff you need to do to your poor lady part. I clearly remember this fricken BS from my first birth experience. Hated it then and hate it now & can't wait to deal with this joy for weeks...

In the late afternoon I was feeling sort of alright to possibly eat. I ordered room service to start gaining back some strength so I could pay my first visit to Silas in the NICU. Was feeling way better by the evening and finally got to spend time with my adorable lil' man and give breast feeding another try. Our first mini trial after he was born was a success so I was thinking this would be no problem from here on, but that was a lie. He managed to suckle a little here and there every time I came back to feed him but yea...gonna need some practice with this breastfeeding indeed. I formula fed my first son back in 1995 so this is a very new experience for me! Since I couldn't be with Silas that first night I had to start manually expressing my breast milk to get the colostrum and bring what I could with me to the NICU. It was super weird and what they expected me to do with a spoon to get it in the container was ridiculously impossible but I managed to get something and eventually it got kinda easy. Of course everyone on staff happened to walk in every damn time I took a tit out to do this. deeerrrrrrr 

That night Grandma & Grandpa M. came to pay a visit and had to lather up to see Silas in the NICU. They brought a cute flower arrangement along with a fluffy white teddy bear, so adorable! Think I'm gonna use it in his monthly photos to capture how fast he will grow the first year. Awwwww pinterest ideas make me happily wanna puke rainbows. The flowers which were daisies (my fave) were in a baby bottle and made my room smell awesome! Wasn't sure if we could take pics in the NICU so sadly I didn't get any pics with my Dad & baby Silas. Dammit, bummed about that.

The rest of the night was back & forth from NICU and our room for feedings. Tiring to say the least but seeing Silas was blissful. Jason eventually went home to tend to the kitties and gather some goods for the next day. I got very little sleep but managed to get my hunger back and scarfed down bananas and pumpkin bars all night between NICU feeding trips, blood pressure checks, blood draws & housekeeping coming in and out my room during the day and some of the night. It's just not possible to get sleep with all that going on around you. To top it off when I did get to lay down for a short nap my fuckin' bed was noisy as hell keeping me awake. 

Hope we'll get Silas's test results and get to leave tomorrow. I so miss being home in my quiet bed with no nurses or staff around to poke & prod at me lol. Thanks for helping but me go home now yes please. To make things better Jason's parents sent a box of chocolates and a balloon to our room tonight. Sooo yummy and kind! I might share...or not. Hey, I'm trying to regain my strength and need chocolate OK.

I didn't share.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Contractions = Delivery Day: Happy Birthday Silas Layne!

Holy heck I think I'm having contractions "ahh-ArrRggGhh" 
Is today really the day?! 

Woke up at 7am with horrible cramps. Totally not thinking it was D-day at all, just that nasty after feeling you may experience after getting a pelvic exam, as I did yesterday. Then the pain kept on and on all damn morning...

By noon I was freaking out for sure and knew this was it. I was most definitely having contractions, mild yet sharply painful almost paralyzing for a second....puke. In my opinion contractions are the worst part of having a baby. Trying super hard to be cool, calm & keep things under control while I suffered through them for 5 hours, counting the time apart while packing my hospital bags between the pain. Yes I said I was still packing...HA this is why you should have your bags packed and ready people. Tip of the day.

Eventually I couldn't walk and had made a new home on our bed pressing my head against the wall maybe trying to push through to another realm where I was not about to give birth, I dunno? It was crazy but seemed to give me some sort of odd relief at that moment. Finally broke down and called the clinic to confirm that I'm-in-freakin labor. yada yada yada ended up having to wait for a nurse to call me back?? whaaaa-t-ever ok then sure.

Sent a text to Jason at 1:11pm 
"You might need to come home asap"

Luckily he got off work early and was grabbing a few groceries at Hornbachers just a couple minutes away. My car also wasn't ready for this trip. Once Jason got home he needed to go fill my bug up with gas AND fill my ever leaking two passenger side tires up with air (one which is a spare mind you) lolololol whatthehellLila. OK nooooow we're off to the hospital! Lets do this!

We drove around the Sanford building once & got all flustered plus more nervous realizing neither of us actually knew where to go let alone park. Our brains finally reappeared after I cringed in pain a few more times as the contractions got closer and closer, feeling like I was about to push baby Silas out right here, right least I was close to Sanford. Jason pulled up to the entry and got a wheelchair ready for me cause by this time I was not diggin' the idea of walking around, anywhere. Nope. Seemed like forever from home to hospital but I was finally here and this was really happening!

 Felt like a million nurses kept checking how much I was dilating which stayed at 4 cms for hours. Eventually I was given a block which would last two hours for the damn pain. That helped sooooo much & I felt at peace.

At peace to birth Silas!

Soon I was at 6 cms once given this wild peanut ball to put between my legs while laying on my side. Waiting, waiting, waiting to dilate, wish I would of chilled out more and listened to music or something cause before you know it was 2 hours later and the block wore off. I was freaking out a wee bit while the contractions & pain returned, worse then ever. For the next half hour I asked for an epideral and finally the chick who administers them came in to give me one of the wonderful shots of glorious bliss but had to leave asap to help a patient who was having a bad reaction to an epiderial she just gave. What? Huh? Fuck. Shoot. Oucccchy goddammit then & quickly the dreamland I was living in faded away. All of a sudden I was dilated enough and the nurses called the Dr. in to get this birthing party started...NATURALLY!

Oh shit. I thought, this was not my plan and I was so scared but somehow managed to pop Silas out in a half an hour. Yes, it hurt of course. Holding back your legs and trying to squeeze out a human being is not easy but the moment he was pushed free was a truly amazing experience!

Weirdly positioned mirrors on the ceiling helped me see some things I honestly didn't need to see but yea...I saw. Wish I would of been looking at Jasons face more though cause I'm sure he saw plenty too. Once you deliver your baby you have to push out the placenta as well, which may weight as much as your baby. Silas was born 9lbs 6ozs so the placenta required a wee bit of pushing to get out & along with the pesky Dr. squishing my stomach this made it kinda painful, especially after the tiring delivery I experienced. Must of faded off a bit when Jason cut the umbilical cord cause I totally don't recall that - phooey. He said his hands were shaking like cRaZy! Awww nervous new daddy. 

Pretty much the way I saw it happening

 I remember Silas on the warming table surrounded by nurses sucking the mucus out of him for an abnormally long time while the Dr. urged me to keep pushing. He kept pushing on my tummy more and more with force this time frantically telling me I need to pass these blood clots or I'd have to end up going into surgery to get them removed. WOW - what the hell was going on here now. I thought the hard stuff was over but nope. Once I did pass the clots I saw the look of one of the nurses whose face turned white as a ghost & she made a frightening noise. Guess it was gross, luckily I didn't see any of this in the ceiling mirrors. The nurse apologized after and said that part always makes her stomach turn if it happens. derrr

Silas was still on the warming table but was soon ready to lay on my chest finally getting the bonding skin on skin time an hour and a half after delivering him. Seemed like a long time to wait....

I'm in LOVE!

While we were bonding I could feel the slight pain of being stitched up down there by my Dr. and a med student whom was getting lectured at the time. Very amusing but sort of scary when you think about it. Hopefully they did a good job or else hehehee. Only a few minor tears happened - unlike my last pregnancy. Was pleased with this info, no one wants to be told they hella ripped open after giving birth and since Silas (9lbs 6 ozs) was bigger then Gage (8 lbs 12 ozs) I was pretty impressed with my va-jay-jay power this time around!

Since I had some blood clots I had to get a shot in my upper thigh which ultimately gave me a mega wicked case of diarrhea. Thank my goddess it started after our family paid us a visit. 

Grandma L. & Silas

Grandma S. & Silas

Sadly and out of the blue lil' baby Silas was taken to the NICU for he had a slightly elevated temp and needed to get some cultures done on him to make sure he didn't have meningitis. WHAA? I was shocked and terrified with this bullshit sounding news & the thought of him not being able to stay in our room tonight or perhaps any of the nights we spend here. This goes to show you never know whats going to happen or what to expect. Glad I didn't want to give a home birth a chance both Silas & I would of had many difficulties not being near all the helpful hospital staff & medical equipment that helped us get through everything with minor problems. 

We are blessed.

Gotta love those baby feet!

While Jason went back and forth from the NICU & our room I was straight up suffering in pain from the stitches and getting furiously annoyed of pissing out my ass from the clot shot. It sucked! Wasn't feeling very good all night long into the morning hours the next day so I wasn't able to visit Silas in the NICU at all. I felt alone and horrid, missed the little fella bunches. My belly was gone and so was my baby. Sadness crept in and I couldn't get a lick of sleep due to perhaps all the stress. Jason was such an awesome daddy and helped me with everything but he had to go home to shower, take care of our 4 fur babies and get a few zzzzz's himself. I was so hungry by then so I scarfed down an apple & half a cliff bar. Yummmm. My poor red dotted up face still showed the stress of the delivery 7 hours after I gave birth. Crazyness. 

Worth it!

Super Fantastic Day...
tough night all alone. 

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

39 Weeks - Stress Test & Eviction Notice

Weight 224 lbs
Dilated 3 Cms

Blood pressure is still pretty high so the Dr. skipped listening to his heartbeat and decided to give me a stress test. First time I've ever needed one with both my pregnancy's so it made me super-duper-nervous. The test took around 30 minutes maybe a bit longer and it honestly was very uncomfortable...@#$%. They make you SQUEEZE on this abnormally tight meshy belly band and stick monitors in the most uncomfy areas to get the heart rate of baby with this print out machine that looked like 80s technology lol. I oddly laid there and read magazines poking and prodding at the damn monitors for what felt like 5 hours. In the end everything was fine and dandy and off I went waddling to the bathroom to pee, amazed I didn't piss myself. I got a pic of my after belly dents but lost it, need to look for that cause its totally weird. 

 Looooong appt. today. First off I waited in the waiting room for at least 20 minutes, it was busy with many pregnant ladies around. Freaking February baby makers in love <3 By the looks of it the hospital is gonna be super full when I deliver. Just great...

This evening at home I'm felling great, no bleeding & I'm not tired as crap from the pelvic exam earlier and had a fun idea to take a pic of my 39 week preggo belly with an eviction notice on it for this lil' dude. It's been decided that November 9th I have plans to be induced if he doesn't come out on his own. I'm almost a "Born again first time Mom" (Thanks for this term Sarah!) Yikes & wowza, nervous of the news but glad there's finally a plan in order. The eviction notice took me forever to make and print out since my printshop and printer are straight up wacko at working normally but I' impressed with the outcome, it's pretty hilarious & totally cute.

Just need to get a bright orange shirt that fits to wear and I'll get a photo of my humongous ready to pop baby belly with the quirky eviction notice above stuck on the side. Should be pretty rad. 

I'll let him chill in peace tonight before I break the news to him...

Friday, October 30, 2015

Pregnancy Cravings - Hot Cocoa & Popsicles

Sooo, I am VERY pregnant and have been on a kick of drinking hot chocolaty cocoa at midnight and eating cold & fruity popsicles all day!

Highly recommend the "Outshine" popsicles, a wee bit spendy but seriously damn good and so far every flavor is kick ass but the LIME is my fave.
Cherry, Grape & Tangerine = Mmmmmm as well

If funds are tight the "Budget Saver" Monster Pops in a slushed lemon-lime flavor at walmart in a huge bag are dirt cheap and taste pretty darn good for the cost! I don't recommend the mango flavor. 

Any Hot Cocoa mix works in my opinion...
I'm so not picky about that currently but if you know any kinds that are super delicious post them in a comment below, I'd love to check them out!

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

38 Weeks - Birth Plan

Weight 223 lbs
Dilated 3 cms

This week my blood pressure is pretty high, just great. Things have really started to bother me like ALL blankets aggravating my skin & the itchynessszzz is still here and just freaking ridiculous now - I'm a madd woman beneath my skin but try not to itch much = very hard. Forgot to mention the obvious but all my clothes feel about to burst open at any moment, POP! I can see why comfy caftan dresses & hippie kurta tops would make a kick ass pregnancy wardrobe. Note for next time & note for my sewing machine.

(Totally wanted to do a cute "Ready to Pop" belly pic of me blowing a bubble but haven't got the chance yet. Pinterest oh how I love thy ideas!)

Today my nurse & I admired the fact we both had on some groovy Chuck Taylors. Bragging about the colors we had and want Dr. D asked "Are those Converse All Stars?" hahaaa then he told us he wore them in basketball back in his school days. Classic shoes loved by all! Nice moment between us all then the realization of why I'm here in the first place hit...The Dr. & I are pretty much getting ready to decide what to do if I don't naturally deliver baby by his initial November 9th due date. The thought of getting induced or arranging a date for C-section birth is nerve-wracking! Heck I'm kinda super freaked to just deliver the baby period, oh crap...

I'm still convinced the wee man will come out when he's ready.
Fingers crossed anyway.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Baby Gender Reveal Photo Shoot

It's been months since we've found out the gender of the baby and we've managed to keep it a secret from A LOT of people for this long. 
So here it is....

It's a BOY!

Awww Mommy is so happy

 Had to tell Jason's parents back in August just because and I stayed up all night making a teal cake with nuts on the top (how fitting) for the occasion. I thought it was very clever lol. Ended up feeling like poo the next day so I stayed home & never made it to the farm to share the news with his parents but Jason's friend did yeaaa! Yes, I'm sure everyone pooped green the next day cause I did and I only had a few slivers of the cake from evening it out to frost it - SORRY everyone, damn colored cake batters. 

Daddy to be Jason, Grandpa to be Dewy and Jasons pal Jay!

Don't get me wrong I planned on getting some sort of cute gender reveal picture done weeks ago but I've been so miserable and tired so nothing has got done on my behalf. The itching, weird sleeping patterns and numb as hell hands has really thrown me for a loop and I feel like a pile of poo most days. Still have a shit ton of items to photo and get listed in my tie dye Etsy shop but bending over to get shots of the new items on the deck is well, a bit difficult to say with this ever growing belly and when I sit at the computer for a long period to fix pics and list items my legs swell up and get itchy making me super yeaaaaaaa. Got an exercise ball under my desk to rest my legs on but that doesn't seem to help much..but does help a bit. 

We love our birch tree!

Last weekend we painted the blocks with goods bought at a Michaels Arts & Craft store to reveal the sex of our wee one with fun neon paints - sooo Halloweenie huh?! Took a few coats but was fun to do even with my numb hands lol. After thinking about it I wish I would of used glow in the dark paints! Doh, might have to repaint them later just cause that would be cute all glowy and lighting up the baby room.

Painting the blocks
Having fun with leaves

We are super excited to be having a baby boy!
His name is still a secret...

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

37 Weeks - Cervix Exam

At 37+ weeks pregnant this was my second weekly OB/GYN appointment with the new Doc (Dr. D.) Having no idea what to expect, for I most definitely forgotten what the low down was 20 years ago when I was last pregnant, I was a bit scared as usual cause these last few weeks of pregnancy checkups are well...icky, as if I'm not in enough discomfort already!

Peed in a cup again, it gets harder and harder with these numb hands but thankfully I haven't dropped the cup in the toilet yet lol. Weighed in at 224 lbs. gained a whoppin 4 pounds since last week! Ahhhh I can tell the baby is growing since my tummy is super tight and getting itchy now. With as much itching issues I've had during pregnancy my tummy hasn't been to itchy until now. Measured my belly & listened to baby's heartbeat as usual.

Then the dreaded Cervix Exam!
No one likes when the doc shoves his fingers in your who-ha but I suppose it's necessary to check things out and it's nice there is a woman nurse in the room always so I don't feel super uncomfortable about the whole situation. Not gonna lie it's a wee bit painful to get the pelvic/cervix exam especially when you don't realize your gonna get it but I did find out I'm 2 centimeters dilated already, whoa!!! Guess my body is totally ready for this, gulp! 

After the appointment I headed to Walgreens to get yet more lotion for my stretched out and itchy skin and low and behold my dang flip flop busted out between the toe area! Ahhhh. I already waddle around when I walk so trying to drag one shoe on my foot to get through the shopping trip was an embarrassing pain in the ass and then I was starting to feel a bit icky and forgot to buy a few important things (like laundry detergent) just so I could go home and chill. I'm sure I looked real cool after I took my flip flop off and just walked around with one shoe on and one shoe off. Oh me oh my.

Got home and took a needed pee & totally freaked when I saw a slimy brown discharge (possibly mucus plug or aka bloody mess) and brown blood on the TP! Dr. D or the nurse didn't bother to let me know this could happen so I run to google this horrible discovery and find out myself it's a normal thing that can happen after a vaginal exam for a day or two. PHEW, thought I was ready to give birth already and gosh darn I'm so not ready in actuality for that, yet I should be. It is a positive sign that labor is preparing to happen soon tho!  

What a wake up call!

That night we installed the baby seat in my car, just in case and got some gender reveal pics finally taken to share on FB with our friends and family.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

37 Weeks - Baby Bump

37 weeks pregnant already and boy does it show!

Baby Bump in the flesh

Thought I should just go for it and show my belly in it's real flesh and stretch marked state, even tho you can't see much stretch marks in these pics for some reason, believe me I have some. Planning on doing some fun henna on me belly before the due date approaches. It will be interesting to see the deflated henna design after I give birth lol.

Fuzzy wuzzy side shot

Got a cute gender reveal photo shot planned for tomorrow to share on FB with my friends and family f-i-n-a-l-l-y. I made them wait soooo long. Sorry. Been so super busy this weekend getting the props painted for that even tho I still have very numb hands = carpal tunnel uuugh. My awesome friend Ash sent us a huge rainbow handmade baby blanket a few days ago and we LOVE it and know the wee one will enjoy it for many years to come! Thinking I'm gonna bring it to the hospital with us to add a pop of color to the scene <3

Colorful Baby blanket gift

9 days until our due date or 2 weeks max until we get possibly induced. 
Time keeps on slippin' into the future...

Oh, and thankfully I tested NEGATIVE for the GBS test!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

36 Weeks - Group B Strep Test

Today was the day I met my new doctor (Dr. D) since my old one (Dr. A) has gone on maternity leave out of the blue. Even the nurses at the clinic said she kept the pregnancy info. from them for a while, dang! Oh well I was real happy with how informative he was with my questions and I actually spent a lot of time with him for a first visit. Yeaaah, totally feeling comfortable delivering with him, he has many years of experience which is a plus since my last pregnancy had some complications that are effecting my current pregnancy. 

Peed in a cup prior to meeting with him and weighed in at 220 lbs. He measured my belly and listened to baby's heartbeat as usual. Then I had to get the group B strep test done tho which is sorta embarrassing since I'm just meeting him but totally important. Luckily there was a nurse in the room with him so I felt more comfortable flashing my goods, especially since I don't remember even what the procedure would be to get the GBS testing done. After 20 years of not being preggo you totally forget shit ya know! Read a little about it and it said you'd get a vaginal swab and rectal swab done...yuck no bueno. Ended up getting only a vaginal swab with two huge Q-tips. It was a wee bit uncomfortable but was over before I knew it, thank my goddess. I'll find out the results of the testing in 2 days or so. He then checked my uterus which was a bit uncomfortable and out of the blue but I found out it's already thinning which apparently is a good thing so close to my due date. The babys butt is in an upward position (like in my damn ribs lol) and hasn't dropped yet so all is going smooth! Wooo-whooo!

After all the fun testing I had to get a flu shot which I was majorly overdue for. I was kinda scared of the needle of course but then it was done. Geez what a pussy I can be in my mind. It did burn a wee bit tonight and I fell asleep early but thankful I got it and it's done with. 

Now to nervously wait for the GBS test results....

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Pregnancy Heartburn RELIEF

Wish I would of gotten these heartburn pills sooner cause they works wonders and taste yummy too! Thank you, thank you, thank you <3

Omeprazole is the bomb!

Now I just have to deal with this horribly 24/7 numbness in my hands and yes, still itchy from head to toe regardless what lotion I use or how much I cover up and try to get my mind off the itch. Still, so darn glad the heartburn has subsided ahhhhhhh relief at last! 

Finished up my huge custom order and got some negative feedback on it, which made me crabby. I hate to make my customers upset but the feedback was pretty much not my fault to start with since some items he sent to me ended up not fitting him and I used a color he does not like on some pieces, yet he never told me that very important information when I asked about colors wanted and not wanted in the first place so I'm confused. This is the life of a tie dye artist honestly lol. Oh well, sorry, can't win them all over.

Now I'm finishing up a small custom tie dye Geode order for an Etsy customer, which is getting tricky due to the hand numbness. Made 4 different tee shirt styles & colors of the design for her to choose from so hopefully she totally digs one and will be happy! 

UPDATE! She chose the groovy rainbow geode

Weirdly, I may have yet another custom tie dye order to do this month after all, just can't stop dying I guess. It's a fun sounding 12 piece custom dying project for a friend and her Mommy blog line of "Crabby Pants". I can't pass up the opportunity so my hands better cooperate! Doing a trial on a pair of leggings I have in stock now, wish me luck.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

35 Weeks - Goodbye Old Doctor

Quick appointment today with some out of the blue news...

First off, my heartburn is out of control and it's keeping me up all night along with the numb hands and itchyness, so I had to vent a bit to Dr. A and see if she could help a girl out of this mess lol. Apparently I may have carpal tunnel, which is common to get the last trimester but not much I can actually do for relief about it but elevate and possibly get wrist sprints if necessary....nope don't wanna tho. One more order to do and hopefully I can retire my hands for tie dying until after delivery. It's a bitch trying to sleep, shower, cook, get my drift. 

I did finish The Dark Tower: The Gunslinger

Peed in a cup, weighed in at 218 lbs. She measured my belly and listened to baby's heartbeat as usual. Easy peasy.

For the horrible heartburn prilosec (omeprazole) was recommended and I am switching to it TODAY! No more Tums and lack of relief, I've had it up to here with the darn tootin' misery! Hope it helps for I am in pain daily & nightly with all these crummy pregnancy side effects. Got some yummy wildberry mint flavor crap which I took instantly, Can take 1 - 4 days to kick in so here goes nothing...

The out of the blue news is:
 my doctor is going on maternity in a week! 

She failed to even tell me she was pregnant. My last appointment I thought I saw a wee little baby bump on her but never in a million years thought she would be so far along. Everyone knows, even pregnant women, not to ask someone if their pregnant so I never asked her just in case but this news shocked me and kind of frustrated me since I'm now due October 26th which is super duper soon and need to get to know a totally different OB doc, which is also a man now I really wanted a chick doc this time around but heck. Oh well, if I added up all the minutes in all my appointments I've talked to her it's probably only been a total of 40 minutes anyway but gee wiz, what a change for me to deal with the last month of being pregnant. 

Meeting my new OB doctor in two weeks at my next appointment. 
Supposedly he's a "big teddy bear" as she says, what the hizzle lol.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Uncomfortably Numb & Itchy

Inquired with the doctor about my cRAzY itchy feet (which has turned into whole body itchyness these days) and since everything looks normal they just tell me to moisturize more and try to get my mind off it. 
O. K. 
easy to say lol

NOW I've begun to get numb hands to make everything even more complicated. Ahhhhhh can all this really happen at once? Yep, apparently...

Guess you can get carpal tunnel as a pregnancy side effect and low and behold I bet I got it. This is making my tie dying job VERY difficult!!!! Huge custom order in the works now as well, trying hard to finish it up so I can get my other custom done and hopefully hang up the sinew for a while while my body acts all pregnant effecty and shit. 

Guess making a baby isn't easy as 1, 2, 3 after all. 

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Pregnancy Cravings - Frozen Yogurt

Soooo I have this enormous Tutti Frutti Yogurt craving almost every day but sad thing is the damn "Tutti Frutti" flavor is rarely available, go figure and WTF I say. 


If anyone has a heart out there and spies that darn flavor always remember that I'm available day or night to accept your super duper kind gift of the tasty yogurt topped with those weirdly delicious popping bobas... 

Thank you in advance.

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

32 Weeks - Ultrasound #3

This ultrasound didn't go as smooth as my last two, I've been feeling icky and super tired lately due to heartburn and lack of sleep, possibly getting the flu as well. About 5 minutes into the ultrasound I was feeling faint, sweaty and sorta sick which the lady noticed and told me to turn on my left side which immediately made me feel a whole lot better! Kinda embarrassing and scary but I'm sure it happens often. Didn't get the best ultrasound pics this time around but what do you expect. Guess this is why you shouldn't sleep on your back at night when pregnant. 

I was told the baby is growing fast and my due date has been upped to October 26th now instead of November 9th, whoa! 

We could end up having a Halloween baby perhaps?!

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Itchy Feet & Ankles

It's starting to drive me bat shit crazy!
This dreaded foot and ankle itching, which I experienced back in 1995 with my first pregnancy, has returned... ahhhhhh! 

No matter what kind or how much moisturizer I apply to them this pesky itch resides deep beneath, bullying me to reach down and scratch scratch scratch till I drop. Then the guilt hits. 

How my feet feel - cRaZy Itchy

Am I losing my mind? 
Feels like a nightmare.

This can keep me up for hours and hours and hours, making me lifeless and cranky the next day. Swollen and sore feet do not help the case but yet I catch myself doing it over and over time after time. Tisk tisk.

It eventually subsides (on a good night that is) and has been getting less annoying since I've started using pure shea butter and just concentrate on zoning out while reading the pretty interesting book by Hugh Howey "Sand Omnibus" which gets my mind on something else besides the evil itch, all propped up on the couch in the wee hours since I usually have heartburn as well. lol

Fun times...

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Love Belly - Take 2

Tried the "Heart on your Belly" with your hands when pregnant picture once again and nailed it this time...

Love Belly

well, minus the sun orbs on my chest and face!

Belly Love

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

30 Weeks - Quick Checkup

30 weeks pregnant already!

Time sure is flying by...
10 weeks to go...maybe!

Tried to get a cute "Heart on me Belly" picture but my thumbs are little nubs of nothing and it just looks like a triangle lol. Shucks oh well still cute.

Dr. appointment was super easy and QUICK. Peed in a cup, got weighed in at 214 lbs. Measured my belly, listened to heartbeat and poof. Done

Belly Love

Sunday, August 23, 2015

I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant...Bullshit!

Baby kicks are a truly amazing & awesome feeling, yet can be oddly painful at times especially when they give you a few nice swift kicks in the ribs! 

I'll never understand how anyone could say 
"I didn't know I was pregnant" 

Getting such big feet to kick mommy with!

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Pregnancy Heartburn Mania

Ok, this heartburn crap is HORRIBLE!
Did not experience this with my first pregnancy so it's kinda shitty to deal with this pregnancy side effect now.

I"ve eaten soooo many TUMS and just cant get much relief what-so-ever. Cry cry whine whine boo-whooo for the pregnant lady.

TUMS = tastes yummy but works only a little

  This ordeal is totally driving me BaNaNaS and keeps me awake all night. I have to sleep sitting up with pillows all around me on the couch if I want to get any sleep. Lets just say I'm a mega crabby bitch these days. Poor Jason, he's being real nice about my mood swings tho. 
What a great guy I got!

Now, I'm gonna go cry in the corner for a wee bit.....